Shadow Jag

It felt good again
The sinking feeling
The poison of evil
Once again
Flowing
Deep in his veins

He felt a sadness
Of losing it once
And forever it seemed
He would never again
Know the love
Of that evil

He could almost see
The world he loved
It's red glow flowing
Moving
Intertwining
Loving
The surrounding blackness

The shadows crept about him
Holding him
In their cold embrace
He smiled at them
Felt his love for them
Their love finally returning
Flowing
From him to them
Them to him
Through their renewed
Oneness, wholeness

Her body swaying sensuously
In the dim light
Causing him to smile
His mouth closed
Hiding what he could no longer
Hide
Or wanted to as he felt the evil
Creep fully into his heart
Once again

Her lithe figure clad in only a shirt
He took in his arms
He held her lovingly
A feeling
He was quickly losing touch with

She kissed him deeply
And he in return
The look in her eyes
Was complete love
And trust
She did not know
What he was
Or what he was finally
Letting take over

A creature of the night
Filled with lonliness
And despair
And bitterness
Of the living
Born
Of a need
To feed upon them
For his own undeath's
Need

He listened to her moan
In his ear
As he began
To lick and nibble on her throat
His fangs growing larger
His blood pumping
In his head
And heart

He said
I love you darling
Just before
He sank his fangs
Deep into her neck
And began draining
The life from her body

When she was lifeless
Her eyes cold and staring into
Nothing
He merely smiled
And felt his coldening heart
Freeze over completely

He kicked the body away
Threw the wedding ring to the floor
And savoured the flow
Of her blood
In his veins
And the power
And the life
That she had given
To him

I think he underestimated
the partings we undergo
and that all in love
must endure this pain
of parting 
until they meet again

When the time to say
goodbye to you
comes every evening 
we are together
it hurts beyond my control

Tears flood my eyes
as I watch your back
move further away from me
hoping to see you turn 
one last time
and see your smile 
to lessen the pain

I turn the music up 
and sing the pain from my 
heart and soul
and by the time
I reach my world 
and prepare to sleep
the pain has reduced
to its numbing
until I hear your voice
or see your face
then my heart and soul
will brighten and shine
and the love you give
will make me whole again.

Words when said 
with the feeling 
they should have
mean more than anything else
in this whole
universe

These three words
have the power
to control the feeling
or to destroy the feeling
or as they were meant to be used
to make the one 
you say them to
feel the greatest feeling
deep down inside
their heart and soul
with complete happiness

Here I sit in my dungeon.
Cold as always.
Illness afflicted.
Lonely and mattered not.
Forgotten by friends.
Unremembered by family.
The rest of the world,
Unknowing, Uncaring.

The world outside
hath taught me
the foolishness
of Love.
And a Big Fool I then Be
To care,
to express yourself,
to only want to love
and be loved in return.
A fantasy at best!
Trust and honour,
the vow of a word
to be felt and kept
but not without cost
To have someone at your side
and then find out
they've been looking the other way

To have life thrown
back in your face
time and time again
It matters not how you do things
you will always be punished
and punishment need not be fair
or equal to your good deeds.
It can be heaped and heaped
until you thought you'd break
from the weight of your emotions
and then someone will throw you
that straw to break your back
and the fates will laugh at you
What do you do?
Do you break
and choose the next life
in hopes of something better
Or do you carry on only
to find life beat you again and again
What do you do?
Why fight it?
Give in to the fates.
Be uncaring,
bitter, hateful and deceptive,

As I soak my pillow in silent tears
the magical water of my eyes lost for naught
I am thinking of many things
my mind churning like a whirlwind
My body growing cold
as it does when the warmth of my heart
leaves for the Abyss of Lost Love
And the awakening of logic and fear reside in its place
filling the newly created void 
I reach out for you, to hold you, to feel your warmth
to ask for you to hold me and comfort me
as both a caring mother and heartfelt lover
But you're not there
sleeping peacefully beside me
as you once did
but I can feel you here in spirit
and I feel you reach over
and hold me tight
To soothe me and say
&quot;its okay love, all will be well, go back to sleep now&quot;
I begin to breath deeply
as the demons of the cold and darkness leave
And the god of sleep comes to take me
And my last thoughts
are of you my love
as they always are
and forever will be.

But if the cats are to be caught
The Mind, Heart and Soul
Must also be prepared
Or they will take them all

I arrived at their den
And crept eagerly to the entrance
Unsure as what to expect
Of these feline marauders

Here I checked my weapons
And found them to be gone
I looked to the gods 
And smiled devilishly
You may have taken my weapons
But you left my Mind, Heart and Soul,
Because the greatest of hunters
To which I belong
Need not such trifle objects to defeat my foe
I accept your challenge
To the greatest hunt of all
To defeat without to kill
To capture and to tame

I ascend at the entrance
Following the sounds I hear
Sounds of growling &amp; hissing
I turn a corner to find
Two great cats indeed!
I see them as panther and leopard

Their tails worth a fortune
Their hides worth a mint
The hardships to tame them
Will be worth the money unspent
I approached eager to tame these
Feline creatures of exquisite beauty
It was then the gods told me
They had been given names
Tia and Angel.

Angel I thought?
What a strange name for a killer
Especially since she seemed to be the one in power
The other, Tia, meowing and purring
Submissive enough 
But wanting to take orders 
From no one

They attacked and retreated
They growled and hissed
So sleek and so agile
Nothing amiss
Then they change 
And seem to blend themselves together
Into a purrfect dance
Of friendship and fun
What tricksters!

There were other hunters there
They were held by the cats
Begging and pleading
For the release
Which would come easily for them
They were not chosen.

I watched the wild cats play and play and play
Til my heart was filled with joy
I love to watch cats
They are both wild and coy

The cats seemed entirely tame
And I felt no need to go on
I thought the gods were playing
Some sort of joke?

I went to my home and met my own domestic
He greeted me at the door as usual
And I told him all that went on
He already knew
What I was to find out the next day
The cats had captured me
I hadn't kept a close watch upon my heart
Those damn cats had stolen it!
I'll get them later!
Yet my resolve had been faded
So I wasn't so sure

Two nights later I was back
And starting to feel the poison
Run its course
It was beginning to flow
Through my second last weapon
My Mind

I watched and found my chance
To strike back at the cats
I found out the pleasure
Of the one named Angel
Her pleasure belonged
To the purest of all creatures
The Unicorns
How ironic for a hunter to turn prey
I held her in thrall 
By my knowledge of the great horses
One down, one to go
Or so I thought

My mind was then taken
Except for the very deepest parts 
I couldn't sleep or eat
Clouded by thoughts of how
To escape, to tame and if it came to it,
To surrender to their charms and go peacefully.
Overwhelmed by a poisonous charm?
Help me I'm going mad!

While I thought of my plans
I would dream about them
I could not even sink into the
Great escape of Fantasy.
With my world turned around
Tired and hungry
My soul alone plunged on.
It came to me 
A flash from the blue
A weakness of the other
She had left me a clue
She was the least impressed of any
By her own feminine and feline woo.
So I told her of her beauty
And charmed her to my side
Now I thought I had them both

I stayed away until I thought
My Heart and Mind would wither
Three night later
I was back for the cats.

I got closer to the cats
Studied them and searched that
Which is most important
Their eyes.

One had a shallow beginning
A door was not far off but
The key was kept around her neck
A protection symbol from another land
I may have trouble breaking its code
What's behind that door?
I wonder what is there?
Trouble as a kitten?
Sorrow, grief, loneliness?
I prefer to think that there are
Great treasures there
Happiness, kindness and love
If only the code can be found
She appears as a temptress
So invitingly wild
But when not in the dance
I found
She's nothing but a kitten

The other invites you into the
Dark recesses of her soul
Dark it is and you find
That you cannot find anything 
Including your way out
A maze that grabs you and 
Closes the door from behind
Can you believe the treachery
She lets you in but not out
And see the emotion that's there
It is specially given and only detectable
By the chosen

The next day I complete my plan
I feel not so overwhelmed now in 
Heart and Mind and then realize to late
The pain thought to be in my heart
Is now that same vicious poison
Spreading through my Soul.

I start to wonder now whether the gods
Are still joking or
Is the new chosen to be the cats next meal
Am I about to lose the fight?
Beaten by...cats!
I sneer and start to laugh
Maybe a little hysterically
At myself
And become even more determined than ever.

The next night before the cats retire
I put my plan into action
Stalking one
While the other occupies the hunters
I present my Soul Script boldly
Within seconds I know it has worked
She has taken the bait
I sit back with a smirk.

A quarter hour goes by and I find
That the other has taken the bait too!
Unfortunately
I have not gotten away
I seem to have only slowed 
The spreading in my Soul.

The gods look down
And smile at their cats
The cats smile back and nod
Another chosen hunter has just decided
That the time has come
For him to accept his fate
And Surrender
To the Cat's Play.

Although, as he does so
He looks deep within
And thanks the gods
It has occurred to him
That he has indeed won!

He watches the Cat's Play
And wishes to join
In the fun of
Rolling and Loving
The Fighting and the Playing.

The cats will leave their den
And travel on to other hunters
Leaving the chosen behind
He is more than satisfied 
With the results of the hunt
He has struggled and survived
But survival doesn't necessarily mean
Unharmed.

A woman named Angel
Who wears the clothes of a devil
Is she really in disguise
Is the name just a front
But just like the cake
She is food for thought

Her body's perfection
As far as tens go
From her hair to her eyes
To the tip of her toes

To touch is a sin
To be touched is heaven
And if there's the chance
You'd be on your knees beggin'

The Unicorns lay against her skin
And pierce her like any man would desire
And like the Unicorns
She's smooth
And she's magical
And so full of fire

The magic grabs the special
And hold their hearts ransom
Will anything free it
It pulls you to her
With a force uncomprehendible
Til she travels on
May they get their hearts back
Don't be the special as I have been

She inhibits dreams
And life
And what every man wants
Something unreachable
That which you want but can never get
Why? Why? Why?  ...etc...
All this describes a certain woman
And a certain word describes this woman
That word is my favourite
My life
And everything I live for
That word is...
Fantasy.

Her partner a woman whose looks
Look to be a physical adaptation of wisdom
Doesn't realize the natural beauty she's been given
Over other women. (Even in the morning!)
I hope there's an Angel looking out for her

Her eyes are transfixing
Like all shadowed and deep coloured eyes
I hope I can pull out of their friendly
Meaning no harm
Embrace

If you can get past her eyes then
You can also enjoy the other beauties
Fate has provided for her
The two have a invisible bonding
That draws me to both
I cannot concentrate on one
Or the other
Or figure out why these two have
Subdued me beyond all my imagination
Why is this happening to me
When I will never see these two again
My heart bleeds and empties and creates
A pain that will not soon go away
By the Gods!  Release Me!

A leader, A general
In the blackest of armies
Answering only to Her
The Queen of the dark, red lands

He was an unimposing figure
He looked nothing but a boy
But his mind was sharper than a sword
More observative than a crystal ball

He arrived at a dive
Called Death's Smile
They've heard about me?
He asked himself with grin

The inside was typical
Smokey, smelly, scummy
A place for whores, pirates
Thieves, assassins, black robes
And worst of all, bankers and lawyers

In moments he was at the bar
He grabbed the owner
Who is she? he commanded
His eyes afire
Fear gripped the barkeep/owner
A fear never known

He whirled to the speaker
Yes go on
His temper subsiding
Tis all I know 
She speaks with few openly

Go get me a dose of TX3
Get it your...
A blade black as night
Flashed in the dim light
Blood poured to floor
And the speaker was no more

The room was dark
Just the way he liked it
He closed the door behind
Moonlight filtered
Across an exposed face
Of heavenly beauty

Her own blade flashed
He caught it with ease
He came in closer
His breathe a cold breeze

His eyes held power
She knew she was powerless
But her spirit held fast
I want you tonight

His hands were so warm
She was totally unwilling
A love for another
But his eyes drew her near
Their gaze irresistable

She could feel his power
As he caressed her smooth body
Hands smooth and uncalloused
They were intoxicating and deliciously warm
She so forgot her fears 
And sank into a passion 
She thought unreachable
He felt nothing
And was gone when she awoke

The next night after work
She greeted her friend
One look was all it took
And Angel turned her back

She asked for understanding
And told all that there was
Angel turned frowning
But held her friend tight
Let her cry awhile
And then took flight
Into the deep dark night

She soon lost him
Knowing the valley
That she had grown up in
Bound to it by an oath
An oath as sacred as could be
To protect the majestic heard 
Of Unicorns
A job she was told 
Done only by the pure
She figured she was underqualified
She could not figure out it was
Pure of heart and intent
Not actions and habits

Towards evening 
The forest revealed to Angel
That Tia was wandering alone
On a direct course 
Into His hands, again

Angel while cursing everything 
Under the setting sun
Ordered her best Unicorn to 
Lead away the danger
She ordered another to help
Tia to the Great pool
She then sat
Against the soft flanks of another and
Drifted into a sleep
Born of the last six days she'd been awake

Tia wandered the dark
Confused and sat crying
After passing what she thought to be
The same rock she had passed 
Only a short time ago

Her spirits were raised when a 
Soft glowing horn came from behind
A tall oak 
Attached was a Unicorn

The Unicorn took her
To the Great Pool
A glistening water body
Always warm and reflecting
The sun or the stars

With his fifth Unicorn kill
And their blood flowing from
His chin and protruding fangs
He kept his course, getting faster
As if he knew his goal was not far

Dawn came with little sun 
Clouds had come 
Angel knew it was a bad omen
The Unicorns were also jumpy
The great evil that had come to them
And killed five
Seemed unstopable

He came upon Tia swimming 
As he appraoched quietly she stood
Water flowing off her form
Unhappy to do so
But having no choice
He did watch one drop that seemed
To enjoy its journey down every curve
Of her smooth, voluptuous body

Angel woke up with a start 
It was late morning
Tia!! she screamed aloud
The Unicorns woke and within moments
Were off for what seemed
A battle they wouldn't return from

I did to
She lied to herself
I love somebody else
She was beginning to feel guilty
And he knew it
And he was using it
Too bad
He shrugged while reaching out

Two screams tore through the air at once
Knocking Tia backwards into the pool
Tia looked and saw 
A gleaming white horn piercing his heart
And Angel wrestling him to the ground

In a blinding flash that rocked the heavens
The Hunter 
Became a red winged demon
Larger than any man by two
He spread great clawed wings
And killed three unicorns 
With one mighty swipe
With strength to make a giant envious

Angel jumped to her feet
Drew a long silvery blade 
And charged with the rage of a mad bull

Her charged was short lived as 
The hunter shot a stroke
Of the blackest lightning
To create a hole clean through
Her chest

It would seem the Angel 
Has gone back to heaven
He laughed loud and hard 
Ringing hers ears

With renewed vigour
And a strength brought on
By anger and pain
And even worse 
A feeling of nothing else to lose

She saw her chance 
Picked up the sword and 
Drove it into his throat
With so much force the 
Blade of the Forest shattered

His laugh changed to a scream
And then a blood curdling groan as
The forest floor opened and swallowed
The once great hunter

The sky began to clear
Shinning off the pool 
That had become tainted
With the blood of an Angel

The Unicorns sat by the pool
Waiting for the miracle
Caused by the god given power
In the Great Pool

Slowly the blood stopped flowing
The wounds closed themselves
The black returned to the creamy white
And Angle stirred slowly awake
In her friends' arms