Always a clown
Dancing around
Smiling to the crowd
Wearing within my shroud
For when its done
All i have is to look back to is the fun
But when it hurts on the soul
It just feels better to crawl in to a hole
Than to face the tears and screams
That haunt the worst of my dreams

A question yearned
Is a answer soon learned
May the answer lay deep within the soul
Or in a dark unreach able sucluded hole
It is only a matter of time
And with its release and explosion will be set...larger than 1,000 mines

Do you believe in love at frist sight
I do ever since last night
Gazing in to your eyes
So wild, reminding me of firefiles
Your image still fresh in my mind
Oh how i wish we had more time
But alas fate stood in the way
I could only relize how long you'd stay

Words of lies
And other nasty things
Can take a bird that flies
And breaks its wings

I wish i could fly
Oh so very high
Just to take that frist step
Close my eyes and triple my bet
But if i should fall
Would you make the right call
And try to catch me
Before i might lose what i maybe

I wanna reach for your star
To the heavens which seem to be so far
But if you take my hand
Prove to me that you understand
Look with in my eyes and see
This ocean of love that only exist for thee

One hundred feet to the ground
I look back through and around
I ponder what brought me to this ending
How the pressure and pain kept me bending
The tears unable to form, grow with every breath
As they sence the coming of death
Breathing becomes aratic and dizziness home
Pushing me closer to the beach, flat and freshly combed
Frightend of jumping
Knowing the chances of surviving
I step forward to acept my fate
Knowing that no one would ever for get this date
Falling fast i pull off twist and turns
The air ripples past so fast it feels as if it burns
I land to catch my fathers eyes bright with tears
Knowing that i have released my fears
I climb out of the pool and look to the score
As the crowd lets out a roar

Be with me tonight
Make everything alright
Reach out and touch my pain
Take away my life's cane
Hold me close as i cry
Pick me up and push me on to try
Look deep with in my eyes and melt my soul
To sum it up in one whole
Take me this night
And feel what i say as right
For what pours out is from the heart
And i never want us to grow apart

No mater how far away
I still think of you everyday
Just like times of when we were together
Smiling i look back at those times as better
When i saw your face so bright with love and joy
Like a child with a new christmas toy
You face so alight
It seem to break through the darkest of night
This is what i remember of our love and times
And what ive done is lost you, the worst of crimes
Yet i await with this solemn look appone my face
Waiting with open arms to excape this hellish place

"Sister"
She breaths and walks
Yet to me she is dust
She laughs and talks
But all i hear is emptiness
She sleeps she cries
My name i hear not
She hugs me and says she cares
But to me she is already gone.

The rainman comith and take it away
For dont fear....he could come any day
What is once here is lost and gone
Just like the mornings dawn
So few have excaped his wrath
So many have become daft
When you close your eyes at night
Make sure everything is left right
Go for the goal and prize
No matter if it takes a million tries
For in the end it will not hold trymph or glee
Because we all in the end fall to one knee
But will you go with a fight 
Or bend to what is right
it will not matter all is measured in the end

As i gaze in to your eyes
I know that even after a million tries
I could never again find the warmth i see
Nor i could i ever feel so free

I could never repay you
For what you have done and what you do
Will forever be burned appone my mind
Your words, your looks, your smile here throughout time

Taking you hand i guide it to my heart
Once stone cold it beats again with a new reason and part

Throughtout lifes many ways of death
Never take your own breath
No matter how harsh the pain
And how many times you've been run over by that train
You've got to stand up and fight
There is no reason to call for eternal night
Because at the end of this trial
You again will show your smile
And with this so will your life bloom
But never....never...call ahead your own doom.

Its is an lovers embrace
Something you can never replace
A thing that is most charished in the heart
This is were great things start
For when two loves build with in the soul
Death cant even be concidered a soft blow
Because Love....no matter how small 
Will always live on with in every floor and wall

These are the things i see at night
Lovers curled up by the fire tight
Joggers running under the visiable light
Like a late night boxer keeping everything in his sights
Viewed from distances crimes and wrong doings hidden from Faces
Lights flash of red and blue when the criminals are caught and placed
Teens sneak out to see the seen
Parents gather quite young and lean
People smile downtown as there sons and daughters are born
Doors slam as couples lives are torn
The homeless putting on a song and dance in their lives
The rich curl deeper in to their money so cold cuts like knives
But i.....i fly high above the city and land
Happy and quite amazed like no man
To see this with in my life and dreams
To real i seems
But i know all will pass,
Quite fast
But what shall last burned for ever.....
The smile, the tear, the kiss, the things of happiness that shall leave never

The happiness blooms like a wild flower
Going to touch an unseen power
Unaware of were it grows in the hearts of evil men
The light and warmth of this tend to make such men bend
To make them see the faces that they cheat
And to later tidy up things quite neat

But with in this soul
The soil turns to coal
And cuts of the water and air
Killing everything that lives there
Nothing survies long
Not even the presence of right and wrong

I look to the sky
Fighting back the tears that i cry
The fumes of the broken down car
Never really got me that far
As i turn to look back at the city
My head fall hard with pity
Reaching in to my pocket for the keys
I swat away the bees,
With in my head.....but i know its but pain i really swat
As i open the trunk the sun so hot,
Sets apone my back
I set back on track
Whistleing to myself the song of my life
It begins like a knife
Cutting away and building at what ive been taught
Teaching thing to me of what is right and naught
I slowly begin to envision were i was going
And i faught back what i was doing
Then i came apone her face
I knew at once his place
Or so i thought
What she brought,
Was pain and sarrow
For years i knew her, this, i thought
That day when i feel apart, the day my heart begain to rot
I packed my bags and let the new one in my bed
Leaving that day....i though my heart dead
Wandering through every wasteland
I continued to open my hand
To keep a smile and a warmth in voice
But i never expected this choice
To brighten the world
As my mind continued to twril
I saw my true future and what ive changed
I made a man once deranged
See the goodness in his work and dreams
Ive made childerns fiends
disappate in there joy
I helped many a boy
Fancy that one that sparkled within his eye
I look back at this....and wander why they said i should have died

Slow or fast
There always being left in the past
Friendships end
Hearts mend
But what shall last forever
Will come around never
These are the wishes and dreams
Of lost happiness and the end of fiends
Locked deep with in my brain
Smouldering like a wreckage of a train
Lost opprotunites 
Missed appologies
Weigh my head down
So it grinds on the gound
Which ignights a spark
Within my heart
Which makes me fall to my knees
As i feel a million bees
Sting and ring with in every pour 
Struggle i crawl to a door
Looking for a familar face
I look and only see disgrace
Pain thumping i hobble away
To excape the day

Slow or fast 
Things are always left in the past.

 "Alone"

I feel a sudden cold within my soul
Because of this new found hole
Like my heart
It was later ripped apart
My mind is strong....
But not for long
As i begin to lose control
I try to find someone to console
But alas it is to late
And i must accept my fate

What happend to your light 
It used to be so bright
Shinning out at night
With such a might
Destroying anything that wasnt right.

But what i see now makes me sick
And it seems you hit me with a brick
The lies build and climax
And when they do,
They colapse around you.

Like a twisted butterfly
When your cocoon opens it causes my soul to cry
When the cocoon drops to the floor i want to scream
And awake from this hellish dream

But i know my life will never be the same
Because you dropped in to shame
Just to see what you have become
Is like slapping me dumb

You lied to me
And for this i set you free
To run on you own
But know this....your disowned

Im higher than the kite,
I won the fight,
I'm the honored Knight,
I have brought back what is right,
And i never got up-tight!
All this i did last night,
For when im asleep,
I can do any feat!

A deep fog sets apone my brain 
It slowly begins to drive me insane
I despreratly try to think
But all is lost in a blink
Glancing back i struggle to see the past
But everything runs by and slapps me to fast
I fall to the floor
As if the door,
Slamed in my face.
I knew this would be my eternal resting place

Dont drink the water 
Its for another
Begging out, crying 
As their dying
In the stench filled streets
Demoblized from the heat

This is not with in a place
But quite closer to your face
Its with in my heart
As i see people today doing there part

Friends come and go
But for you i may never know
For in my mind 
you shall last til the end of time

You might not remember me, but i remember you
Just like awaking in the soft summers dew.
For once i saw your face
It lingered within my mind like some forgoten taste
Til' this moment were i asked thee
I was unsure if you remembered me....Not Comletely ye...