Raevan

Lady WhiteCraven

The lightning split the sky asunder
And following as partner the roaring thunder
Shook the walls and foundations well
Rocking the heavens, and the very pits of hell

The old oak dorr creaked upon entry
As if to make sure to wake some sleeping sentry
To visitors, intruders, guests and the same
To pay patronage to the owner of this castle's name

The foyer was elegant, but dark and quiet
For here there is no stirring till darkest time of night
Only then does the hostess of this abode rise from slumber
Inviting to her haven guests without number

BUt on this dark night, she sits alone
In a window chair she sits, whitened by moonlight like a pure stone
Her falling around her tender form
She wears a dark cloak, to keep her cold body warm

No color in her face, but her lips as blood-crimson
And her eyes that flash, brighter than the accursed sun
SHe is the mistress of Castle Whitecraven
For creatures of night, her home a haven

He stumbled upon the door, soaked by the rain
Pushed forward through night by broken heart's pain
And across her path he did fall
And into the door, to anyone, he did call

Opening with a suddeness that took him back
THe doors revealed a woman all in black
WHose beauty struck him to his soul
As from the god's garden this rose stole

He could not speak, for words meant naught
His logic and passion over his soul fought
To take her into his arms and love her forever
or to seek her happiness, not his pleasure

so suddenly had the doors opened he did not realize
that as he looked at her, tears formed in her eyes
such perfection should have no woe
this night's grievance he must know

he followed her to a warm chamber place
where they sat, staring intently in each other's face
then finally she spoke, soft and quietly by the fire
of her lonely soul, cursed as a vampire

of aeons of lovers who could not satisfy
her craving, not for blood, for all creatures die
but of love, and passion, and intensity of soul
for she was partial, seeking HE to make her whole

Looking deep into her eyes he told her true
"From the nothingness I have been sent to you
To love you and hold you forever as mine
And become as you, a creature of all time"

She must know his name she insisted
Tempting him with kisses, but he resisted
Till finally she proclaimed her love to him to be given
And holding her to him, whispered.. "Raven"

That first night was filled with ecstasy unbound
Thw had at last love found
Clinging to each other in passion's embrace
Touching each other's body, softly touching each face

Intensity exploded and they made love through the night
Thrusting at each other will all of a god's might
To satisfy each other, and bring pleasure to their mate
They wildly held for hours each other in this state

And never shall the two part
For each has pierced the other's heart

one night i walked for hours it seemed
in pale moonlight much like a dream
the trees and clouds made shadows real
and a cool breeze across my face i did feel

the road i walked lit up by the moon
i secretly hoped would end soon
but twist and turn round a bend
cliffs and caverns made it never end

my goal was far from me still
i could see Her form in Her window sill
my heart a compass, the moon my light
i walked and walked, the lonesome night

traps and trappers blocked my way
I anxiously thought of the coming day
so i gave as payment part of my soul
knowing when i found Her i would be whole

hours seemed like days too slow for reality
time passed in excruciating agony
the more i walked the distance grew
so i began running, not knowing what else to do

She was light years away before i realized
so i stopped running and laid down to die
for life without her in it is just a sad joke
filled with mirrors, fake magic and too much smoke

and as i opened my dreary eyes
like the last look before a man dies
i saw Her form in the pale moonlight
a vision, a goddess, a heavenly sight

"If only you'd stopped sooner, together we'd be"
i heard Her say as She tenderly kissed me
i took her tightly in my arms with love
we're a perfect match, like two doves

My love, you see I ran to catch you
but i am not quite sure you really wanted me to
so i stop and wait for your readiness
dreaming dreams of moonlight bliss

Where one day i hope the two of us are
dreaming that day is not too far
i see you in the sky in the sun's bright rays
and in the moon at night, your glowing face

i long to kiss your tender lips with mine
looking into your bright eyes that shine
to tell you "I love you" a thousand times
'til the bell of eternity finally chimes

She stands down by the doorway, holding the entire house upon her burdened back.
And says nothing.

Her dreams taunt and torment her, but she endures her lot in life.
And says nothing.

And when that time comes, and her dreams fade into reality, slowly meshing with her existence, she opens her mouth with one word.

When I wake, I see your face in the shadows of my abode
And I move with cat-like grace, to touch you
But I can't, for you are just an image, a mirage
A dream of purest light

I wait, and watch your face in the shadows, until the sun rises
And drenches the universe with blinding light
But you are still there, your face, shining brighter than the sun
For you are a dream, a dream of all time

As two stars that burn at night
I saw our two loves, a sight
Burning less, growing weak
I dared not move, nor tried to speak
And say my feelings of the moment
Of how my heart and love was stolen.

The winds of night blew the ashes away
From the burnt out love of that day
Sitting quietly as moonlight shone...
The two of us together, yet so alone.

In ancient tale there is a tale
A god made creatures so frail
Into one being, two heads, four arms
Four legs in one body, for he saw in this no harm..
In his creation, until one day
He saw life could not exist in this way
So dividing the soul in two, in effect,
He found that creation was truly, at last perfect.

So in life we have each a task to do
To find our soul's other half so true
To create the one union from above
A bond formed by perfection's love.

As I lay thinking of my past
How I thought our love would last
And how now times do change
I find separation to be so strange

Strange creature... woman...who knows your mind?
Answers to questions, I cannot find.
So, I live in puzzlement from now on
Scarcely believing you could be gone.

Her voice echoes throughout the night
I strain my ears with all my might
To hear her call of love so true
Responding to it in moon's full view

Love hath no barrier to stop our course
It's power is great, no greater a force
Can there be found between such two;
Can you realize how I love you?

The shores washed me clean of what I was
And with every wave, drowned my soul
Under the cloudless sky above
And with every breath becoming whole

Waiting behind the shadows of never dreams
And stalking among the low cast horizon of hope
Being pulled apart by my soul's seams
And finding that eternity resided in my grope

Shall I dare hold the sky captive?
I cannot, and yet, in her eyes
The stars shine brighter than the sun at midday.

Her lips, pursed, perfect.. oh to touch, not to kiss,
For this bliss would dare not be mine, but to touch.

Her face, where in all that is and
Was and shall be found such
Innocence, such wonder, such grace?

And what is this? This strange
Awakening I hold deep inside...
This warmth, this child-like joy
That burns me from my soul out.

She, cloaked in night, dances by firelight.
He, an unwary traveller, is fully entranced by her.

She weaves her magic with perfection true
Pulling apart his boundaries, making new
His soul, drawn to her by goads
Travelling down winding roads.

Intoxicated, drunk with love, he falls
And runs and dances upon her calls.
A pitiable fool ne'er was there to be
Damn the Fates! the fool is me.

Fool, thy name is the Heart.
For in the heart dwells no wisdom nor any devising of knowledge.
For too quickly thy hand is played,
And far too oft, thy face is shamed.

Have courage, for in truth there is hope
And blindly thou must grope for that which seemingly
Eludes thee. But grasp it thou wilt, and take hold.
And hold forever.
Thy heart's content be fulfilled.

As wind carries me to her by night
Upon unseen angel wings I do glide
I do not deem, nor does it seem right
My feelings, my heart, I must hide.

Her kisses, an agony in secret embrace
Her touch, a torture I endure
Her smile, the sun-lit upon her face
I love her pure.

She, my secret love, my heart does take
I, the idolizer of my goddess, alone do stand
Parting from her, I feel my heart break
Reaching out in the darkness for her hand.

As I wake in the midst of a startling dream
My heart quickly beats, my pulse a scream
Only on thoughts of you does my mind gaze
As the window opens, I sit in a daze.

Pulled out of my chamber by the moon's light
And transform into the darkness of night
Winging to you in the sky above
Longing to be near the one I call "Love".

As I approach your warmth, your tender embrace
I delight as the smiles dance on your lips and face
Just as I touch your hand lightly
I am pulled back and gone for eternity.

How can I with unworthy words that fail so
Dare to try to let you know
The pain I must keep inside
The tears that I just haven't yet cried
Or even give you a glimpse of my broken heart
Seeing that it is torn apart?

God I miss you more than breath final
I can no longer dare to live in this denial
I beg the gods of mercy for a heart of stone
Fate, I command thee to keep me alone
I cannot bear anymore of this strife
Days on end creating agonizing life

Solace I find in words so stark
Creating a haven, a place so dark
To block out love's harsh light, the bastard tease
Giving my soul a rest at ease
Time surely will heal all wounds
Pass quickly, for tired am I and seek it soon

Hope springs up quickly in my mind
To another happiness I dare to find
Know that everyday passing tears me up
So thirstily I drink from Forgetfulness' Cup
To forget the pain, hurt, and misery
That seems to always accompany
That farce they like to call Love
For surely it cannot be from above

Nay, but from Hell below, the devil's prize
To take our souls, and blind our eyes
Whipped, chained, burned with passion's fire
Like the Phoenix arising from the funeral pyre

I take my heart, and rip it out for good.
Doing something I long ago I should have done.

Cloaked in darkness, wrapped in night
She held her court at new grave's sight
Her dark eyes peered to the very soul
Seeing all it lacked to make it whole
She watched the graves of newly dead
An angel of light, seeing darkness instead

One night, as fate does deem it so
I died quietly, and to the ancient graveyard did go
I saw the Mistress sitting there
As a cool breeze softly ran through her hair
Her black cloak and gown enveloped her
Who she was, i wasn't sure

The graves were old and the rusty gate
Swung back and forth with a loud grate
The full moon shone on my new home
"Here lies LOVE" read my tombstone
The old trees made shadows in the moonbeam
Of Old Death's chariot and his drawn team

The clouds rolled in funeral procession slow
With a silent RAVEN flying to and fro
No sound was made by Mistress this while
Her blood red lips conceded no smile
As sombre as Death himself, she stood
Life a stoic oak in thicket wood

The graves of departed ones had begun to fade
The epitaphs that a stone mason so carefully made
A final thought before their end
To loved ones, lost one, lovers, forgotten friends

And as my mind raced through intense agony
The Mistress approached and spoke to me
She told me of a young man once i knew
Who met a love, a love so true
That parting from her arms felt like death's silent sound
Saying good-byes, as lying in the cold empty ground

She told me more of his passage of time
An unyielding love his only true crime
She continued on about his final days
In love with a beauty words unworthy to say
Who he worshipped like the noonday sun
Without her there, the universe undone

FATE, LOVE's jealous wicked twin
Knew how to end love and let pain win
She took his life to end their love
And set his body in this ancient cold grove
To be watched for by the mistress for eternity
And so she watched for and cared for ME.

Time did pass and i felt at peace
This tragic death a morose release
Spending aeon after aeon together, forming a relationship
I realized FATE's mistake, kissing Mistress' lips

"It's you!" i exclaimed, stood amaz'd
Through my soul to hers intently gazed
She dropped the cloak and her angelic light did shine
The love of my life was once again mine!

"Eternity without you would be a fate worse than Hell,
A place without you near me, where i would gladly dwell."
Together they were in each other's hold
Drawn by love where passion was thought to have been Death cold

This tale of mine and my Mistress dear
Is a tale of love for all lovers to hear
My love has no bounds, no words fulfil
The depth of my love, from life and death until
She is the epitome of my very need
I long to see her, an addiction to satisfy with greed

She completes me wholly and i grow
Unable with inadequate words show
How much she means to me each day
So with earnestness and my heart to my goddess i pray
"I love you as the stars love the night sky,
And my heart shall love you long after I die."

a sullen wind did blow from the tree tops down
and falling like an angel from heaven, so fall the leaves
dropping like silent tears to the ground
as if the very trees do grieve

the moonlight, drowning the night in incandescent glow
emanating from that silver globe above the sky
too like the cleansing wash at the shore
of the crashing, thunderous waves at a high tide

like disciplined soldiers they stood stone like as i passed
these trees, though leaves fall, take not a note one
of their fallen comrades but hold their guard fast
through rain and night and scorching sun

but this night was not to be a trifle, so the tale does tell
no such night has heaven seen, or been dreamt of in the pits of hell.

the bolt ripped across the sky as a knife cutting flesh
opening a wound in the peace and solitude of the moon's reign
and as suddenly as the light did shine, so came the thunderous crash
as if the bolt did cause the night sky pain

bending those soldiers to their knees in torturous wind and hail
some being broken and dying with a crash and scream
other's guard daring not to fail
the fallen soldiers smashing the peaceful moon's beam

raping wind and molesting rain, taking no heed of the of the impassioned cries
tearing and pulling at the harmony of the now lost place
as a murderer stares with cold black eyes
into his newest victim's face

and then as suddenly as it comes, it goes, leaving only few alive
and this is the terrible/beautiful cycle of our natural life.

What is it?
This echoing rage that builds in me, every time I see him touch you?
Every time you mention his name, the burning in my heart?
Every time you shed tears for him, or because of him, it shatters my soul?
What is it?

What is it?
This feeling in my stomach, every time I talk to you?
Every time I dream, you are the central figure, and it wakes me?
This emptiness, knowing I can never hold nor touch you?
Knowing that you will be in the arms of someone else?
What is it?

the loudest sound is a single tear, running the course
of your cheek, and crashing to the ground in a crowd.
and with that crash, my soul is pulled to the ravenous
pits of what i must know to be true,
that the tear
was not
for me.

Hours turn to days, days drift by
As anxiousness for the morrow conceal I try
In vain it seems; my heart beats quick
And the downs of life cannot prick
Me from this dream-like state I am in
Hoping to sleep to dream it again.

When can I see Her? When can I hold
Her in my arms and reveal feelings untold?
Friends and time seems to blur and fade
Like the shadow of a tree in darkest shade.

Days turn to weeks, weeks crawl slow
Impatience grows in me for my feelings to show
And when at last! that day does come
I DEFY the moon's movements; STAND STILL SUN!!

For this is MY day, and my face graced with a smile
To spend a time with her, if only a short while
Is to spend eternity the the goddess I idolize
An eternity that lasts mere seconds in my eyes.

wound by springs that have been sprung
asked to sing songs already sung
i stand and wait and watch.

laughing at jokes that have been told
feeling to young and much too old
i stand, and wait, and watch.

seeing sights seen too soon
felling the sun's warmth under palest moon
i stand, and wait, and watch.

tired of standing, i sit nearby
tired of waiting for time to fly
tired of watching for you.

I cannot recall the exact day she died
or dare to remember if i even cried
i do recall a cold wind's chill
some flying birds, a raven's call shrill

the last conversation seems just a blur to me
our last embrace a fading memory
our last long kiss, too short now in mind
and those happy eyes, i just can't find

but the one thing that survived through death
"I love you eternal" was her last breath

When I said I loved you, 'twas all true
For in eternity my heart belongs to you
My soul is at your beck-and-call
I, without you, am nothing at all

When I said I loved you, I dared not lie
For from my heart to yours through the portals of my eyes
I proclaimed as loud as an angel crying out in mid heaven
You are the treasure of the world I have been given

When I said I loved you, no jest did I make
For my heart teases not, for love would me forsake
And too my soul, leaving me blind to grope alone
But upon you, my heart's sun had shone

When I said I loved you, I did not think
That from my heart's highest pedestal you would sink
Eternal perfection to my heart's dream
Loving you forever, or so it did seem

He walks this earth, heart open wide
To feel the pain, the passion of all
THe anger, the hate, the joy, the strife
The ending of love, and it's first fall

He cares not how deep the wound goes
Nor how much pain he must endure
For his mind is aware, his heart knows
That the pain he feels is pure

Some do marvel as he spins his tales
Of man and woman's ultimate quest
To find the truest love, or die and fail
Or to even keep such love through harshest test

In truth, he has felt love for a moment
Felt the sun shine upon his soul
But, sadly, this from him was stolen
And so he travels the earth, seeking to become whole

The passion, the intensity of every moment in your arms
Brought my soul to climax, to awakening, but with no harm
My heart at last could beat true, having found you, and felt your heart
For before love came, my heart sat dead in my chest, my life apart

And now, that love has come, and yes it has gone as well
I take my chances and would follow my heart to Hell
For having once tasted the forbidden fruit's nectar divine
I cannot it part from lips, but keep it as mine

For "tis better to have loved, and lost, than to have never loved at all"
A fool says this; someone who has never felt the love's fall
Nay, I say. Tis better to have never loved, than to love and scorned
So, take heed, my heart, you have been forwarned

Do not fall upon the graces of love's charitable calls to you
For love does not call, it cares not true
But games it plays, and win it shall, for it is best
And alone I interminably will be, with my heart's unrest......

For now, in these quiet moments, we sit, and we think of all that is, and was, in heart, in soul, in mind.
I truly hope you enjoy these, and many future windows to my soul.
It has been my true honor and pleasure to share them.