~BLACK SOUL~

YOU LEFT ME..

HOW COULD YOU WHEN YOU KNEW..

EVERY MINUTE OF MY EXISTENCE WAS SPENT TRYING TO PLEASE YOU

LOVE YOU

WANT YOU

NEED YOU

THE SOUL THAT ONCE YEARNED FOR YOU.. NOW FEELS IT'S LAST DYING BREATH WITH EVERY STEP YOU TAKE FURTHER AWAY

I GAVE YOU MY KINGDOM AND NOW IN RUINS I STAND

WAITING...

MY SHRINE MEANS NOTHING NOW.. FOR IT WAS YOUR TEMPLE

SO NOW I WATCH THE SUNSET THROUGH OPAQUE LENSES

WAITING FOR MY LOST PRINCESS TO RETURN

EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVE GONE YOUR SEPARATE WAY.. I STILL WAKE UP AT THAT SAME TIME EVERY NIGHT

A COLD SWEAT TAKING CONTROL OVER ME..STILL TASTING YOU ON MY LIPS..

YOUR SWEET SWEET AROMA FILLING THE NIGHT AIR

I WALK ALONG THIS ENDLESS DESERT.. TRYING TO LOOK UP AT THE DENSE SKY

WISHING FOR A RAY OF HOPE TO SHINE IN THIS LIFE OF DESPAIR

WITH EVERY LAST ACHING MUSCLE I RAISE MY HEAD.. ONLY TO BE BLINDED BY SORROW AND FORCED BACK INTO MY DANK, RUSTY OLD HOLE

I SAW YOU THE OTHER DAY.. YOU WERE LAUGHING AND SINGING.. AND HAD FLOWERS IN YOUR HAIR

I WATCHED YOU THROUGH BROKEN GLASS

ONLY TO BE BLINDED BY THE GLARE.. COMING FROM YOUR RADIANT AURA

I SINCERELY HOPE YOU FIND HAPPINESS.. AND THAT YOUR DREAMS ALL TURN TO REALITY

I BLOW YOU ONE LAST KISS.. ONLY TO BE STARTLED BY THE BITTER TASTE OF ETERNITY

~MOON GODDESS~

You are my precious Moon.. and I am the night that surrounds you.
Making you the center of me.
We grace the dark sky with our presence.. you and I. as one.
One soul.. one mind.. one heart.
Like the wind swirling through the trees on a wawarm summers eve.
You come to me.. with the touch as soft as a baby's

But then I wake up with the sun beating down upon my face
only to realize it's another dream
The paradise that I can not grasp.. so close. but yet so far.
I reach out.. hoping that this time the dream is now reality
But let out a cry of agony when my hands touch nothing
So I hold you close in my soul.. and arise with confidence

My love for you is like a raging fire that never dies.
As the flames grow hotter and burn more fiercly.. so does my love for you
I watch the fire shape itself around the walls from which it's contained.. Acting tame.. but knowing that if the flame was not trapped.. that it would run wild through the night.
. Freely roaming the earth.. sure of itself.. and it's desires.
I am sure of myself.. in knowing that you're all I need.

I love you Moon.

~Just One Step Away~

Every morning I wake up and wonder.. will this be the day
The day where I lose all sense of reality.. and fall deep into the jaws of blackness
I bolt up out of my bed.. sweat glistening on my brow.. and run
Just to keep one step away
I often think at night.. me sitting huddled up in a ball with the dim flicker of my reading light illuminating an ominous green hue over my sickly pose
I have to laugh at me though.. all curled up in a ball.. shaking and crying
How flexible do you have to be anyways.. before you snap
Before you lose touch with the world.. when dreams fade away into dust.. blown out to sea by the fiercest winds
I guess it's all a matter of time.. we all begin to decay when we begin life
If not physically.. then definantly mentally.
Each day seems like a long hall with many doors.. and no ending..
Which door will I chose today.. will it be my demise
Or will I just keep running down that long hallway
Trying to keep just one step away.

~The Window (for Jade)~

Look through intensley
With your heart.. not your eyes
You'll see past the smiles..
The deceptions and lies
You'll find my true spirit..
The person inside
And all of the parts of me
That I try to hide
You'll know the real reasons..
I feel how I do
All the reasons I've fallen
So in love with you
Instead of the walls..
That you usually see
You'll now find the window..
That looks into me

~The Human's Worth~

Uneasy in the graves they lay
Buried deep beneath the earth
Maggots and worms.. there they play
Not a nod for the human's worth

Crooked headstones.. atop are seen
Marking graves of crooked men
Shadows are cast as they lean
Darkening the script.. who.. what.. where and when

Men are placed beneath the dirt
Blanketing empty souls of hate
Atop the wives sit sorry and hurt
That their blessed men shook the hand of fate

Some flowers line the trodder plots
Paises.. roses and tulips are used
To mark the graves of men who thought
That human lives should be abused

Whispering families come and go
To prove they respect those that died
Even so.. the groundskeepers know..
That those mourners smile inside

And what do the groundskeepers think of me?
I.. still fresh.. and above the ground
'Almost dead' they say..
Waiting to lower my casket down

They dig the holes.. they lay the sod
Piercing eyes.. They lay the earth
And occasional frown.. a shrugging nod
But not a word of the human's worth

~A World Is Told~

They say death holds a better world
They say the sky is blue
They say a star does twinkle bright
They say all this to you

You ask why roses smell so sweet
You ask why birds do fly
You ask why trees do stand so tall
You ask why people die

"A penny earned.. A penny saved"
The world is upside down
"It's always dark before the dawn"
The greedyman does frown

A mess we've made upon this world
Mistakes beyond my mind
You ask me what "They say" to help..
A hell for all man kind

~My Love For You~

I decided I couldn't live without her near
I certainly can't live with pain and fear
I can no longer kiss the sky
So.. I decided I should die
I threw myself to the edge of a shore
Into the Abyss I smiled.. you won't hurt me no more
As I jumped.. flew by a dove
And you ran.. yelling undying love
I realize my love for you has grown
But all you wanted.. was to be alone
I can now say that I died for love
Now.. by my grave.. will lie your dove
For I never meant to hurt.. and don't know why
I am so very sorry.. I'm just a jealous guy
I hope someday you will understand
And I realize it.. as I land
That too many people withdrew themselves
And I have only my diary upon my shelves
For.. from me.. my diary never withdrew
I hope you realize.. I just wanted to be with you
I barely thought.. with you I'd grow old
You wouldn't want my diamonds in a ring of gold
I just fantasized.. as to what I could see
And "Forever in my Life".. I wanted you to be
Not just as a wife.. but as my best friend
But as I land.. you will never see me again

~Love me~

Want me
Taste me
Touch me
Breath me
Need me
Cherish me
Hold me
Live me
~~*~~
Loathe me
Beat me
Shun me
Use me
Smash me
Stab me
Burn me
Kill me

(no title sorry)

I watched you burn
I watched you bleed
... all over me
I watched you enter my soul
I watched you believe in me
... forever
I watched you drown
I watched you die

For Tanya...*love always your brother, Devonshire*

A fierce wind races through my body
Chilling me from within
Turn off the sun
Tear down the moon
There's nothing left inside

I saw them lay you down
Into your final bed
Cold eyes staring at me
showing no remorse
I'm dead too

I died with your soul
Cold hands cloak you in darkness
They also erase my life
Draining, unitil I'm just a shadow
A whisper, nothing more

I can never deal
I will never cope
In this day of broken dreams
... And shattered glass
I watch you fade away

~Broken Lives~

You slit your wrists
I crack within

You burn yourself
I am the sin

You beat yourself
I turn away

You hang yourself
I've gone astray

You shoot yourself
Where am I now?

You hate yourself
I wonder how

You loved me so
My precious girl

You breathed me in
I was your world

You run away
I try and hide

You kissed the stars
And then you died